Sunday, February 22, 2009


I took an Ambien and tried to sleep last night but it wasn't working, so after half an hour I decided to read. After several hours I decided to try the couch, then I moved back to the bed. At 6:30 a.m. I got up and started doing laundry. I felt like I could do anything--no sleep.

Justin made me lie down with him again after we put the laundry away. He held me down in a cuddle until I finally rested.

Now I feel like crap.

And there you go. Some people go shopping when they're manic; I read and do laundry. A rapid cycle.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009


I'm still unemployed.

So much of America is unemployed, yet I am managing to make my unemployment my problem. My problem. As if it is my fault that, like so many other Americans, I got laid off.

So it is not my fault.

Which means there is no reason, no reason at all, for me to blame myself even a little bit.

I'm still unemployed.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Now that I'm unemployed...

I suppose it's time for me to find a new road for this life of mine.

I got laid off.

I spent my time immediately following Thursday's news in a stricken stupor quickly followed by a beautifully distracting visit from my Canadian cousins, so now I have time to reflect.

The only thing I keep coming back to is grad school--and by "keep" I mean, since I was first teaching...

And now I see that Cal State Long Beach is the only close-by program.

Deadline: last Saturday.

So we shall see...

Sunday, February 08, 2009

Just Another TGIF-Kinda Girl

I haven't cared so much about weekends in a while, but now that I'm working 9 to 5, I'm all about the weekend.

Justin still works on weekends, so I don't have the luxury of my husband's company every weekend, but I also don't have to go to work.

That is reward enough for having survived another five days at the office.

On Mondays, my friend and I look forward to our Friday Happy Hour margaritas. It's really what carries us through.

You know that job I mentioned?

So far, I have created a 5 page brochure, including 17 meetings to review the text and the graphics, created a presence for the company on facebook, myspace and linked in, answered the phones done some administrative work, taken photographs of a class for our website and, oh, by the way, am getting set to actually create a website for us.

Please review previously posted job description if you have any questions.

Tomorrow, I stop whining about this turn of events.

Until then, I will continue to feel put-upon, taken advantage of, used, and aggravated.

I know my attitude could use a little warming up.

Despite my new found regard for the weekend, I find myself spending it getting the car fixed, doing laundry and cleaning the house. Still, this is better than work?

At least next weekend I get to see my cousins, who will be visiting mom and dad from Toronto. Their son is playing baseball in the region, so we'll be going to his games. The following weekend is the movie marathon. The weekend after that is my get away to Ventura with Justin.

In between, margarita Fridays. Thank God.